The Art of Not Being There

Instead of panicking about what I'm going to be when I grow up, I've decided to Not Make Any Decisions. In doing so, I've made a few stress-relieving decisions.

1. If I go to school at all, I really want to go to med school. It is where my interests and passions lie, so I'm going to have to go for it. I just decided (in not making any decisions) that I will take it easier on myself, which means:

2. I won't take the MCAT until at least August this year. I can still apply for the same year, I just won't be early. That gives me time to actually take Physics before I start cramming for a test that includes Physics. Duh.

3. I will only apply to UW. While it was fun to daydream that I would go to Dartmouth or move to Burlington, I think it was incredibly stressful for me and for Todd to think, well, we might not even be here in (x) years if i get into school and blah blah blah. I want to go to UW. I will do my best to get in here - the program is fantastic and I don't want to leave my home and support system. It is so important to have the support of my community and the Kung Fu community when I do this - as well as the support of my family. Phew. I fell better already.

In deciding to go for UW, the classload I need is significantly reduced. I only need to do the prereq's for one school, which means, well, Physics in the Winter. Physics in the Spring. and then DONE! Totally doable.

4. I will take a real MCAT class. I need the help of an actual teacher. But in the meantime, I'll do as much of my online class as I can (skipping Physics) and thus, I will totally kick the MCAT's ass come August.

Meanwhile, back in Kung Fu.... I taught a couple classes on the Art of Not Being There. I didn't call them that, but after they were over, I realized that was what I was doing. I taught a sparring class on footwork, ways to move out of the way, deception and dancing. Defense without having to be caught in hard-blocks all the time.

It was afterwards that I realized that The Art of Not Being There is also the Art of Not Making Decisions. A whole lot less effort and a whole lot more effective.

Today is my girl's third birthday. For her nap, she laid down for her diaper change, picked out three books which we read in bed, and she nursed to sleep with no fuss at all. The terrible twos over today? Ha ha...

P.S. We got Lucy in to that wonderful daycare. She starts at the beginning of November - a week from Wednesday. Hurray!!!!